January 13th, 2012

I didn't want to get out of bed this morning.
Last night was horrible. Horribly horrible, I can't even explain it. I was at such lows, and it was just so hard. I tossed and turned all night. My lips are chapped and broken from biting at them all night, my eyes are still sore, my body aches. After I post this, I'm taking a nap. I don't care if its almost 9pm, and I should just go to sleep soon for good. I just want to doze off and feel peaceful for a while.
I got up earlier than needed to because Danae had an earlier class. I got ready, and grabbed breakfast, ate, sat online, got bored, and crawled into bed. I was really upset when it was 10:20 and I knew I had to get up and go to my 10:40 class.
To make it worse, it was a fucking blizzard outside. Now, I love snow. Just... not... when I have to go places? Or be outside? Or when its really snowing hard and its really windy. I made it though, and couldn't stop zoning out during Theory. :/ And I sat in the front, at one of the tables today, so Soroka must have thought I was going insane....
I hauled ass upstairs to get my bassoon and the contra, played in class, dragged shit back up, and went to lunch. I was originally going to get shrimp tempura sushi stuff, but then I noticed it was almost $10 for shitty pieces. Then I was going to get cheaper California Rolls, but the avocado just looked a little brown, and I didn't want it. So, I was unhealthy and had Chick-Fil-A, and a Strawberry Banana Sobe. Which, that reminds me, I should put it in the fridge.
Did my bassoon lesson, and that went surprisingly well. Had studio class. I feel like I have a better grasp on the Contra now. I'm really glad.
Came back around 5:30, chilled out, did my writing homework, ordered Chinese, ate the Chinese, and now, here I am.
I'm going to either start reading "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" until I doze, or more Law and Order SVU till I doze. I'm going to wake back up to talk to Jake when he gets off work, and do homework or something.
Tomorrow I have to get up early to go to see my brother perform and Solo and Ensemble. And then I'm hopefully seeing Cosi fan tutte tomorrow night, unless tickets are sold out and Jake can't get one... in which case I'll try to exchange my comp ticket for a ticket for Sunday afternoon. I want to see it, but with him.

Anyways, I'm tired.
I'm going to try to figure out how to put a video from today up here.

~Mary