March 15th, 2012

It's apparently supposed to storm pretty hardcore outside tonight. There were tornado watches and touchdowns, and there's apparently thunderstorm watches and warnings near me. It just sounds like a typical summer/spring night out my window though. Aside from occasional soft rumbles, which I suppose must be thunder, I can hear the lamp post humming, cars passing by, and even crickets chirping a little bit. Nothing seems too threatening. And yet, apparently back over in Warren and Roseville, it was hailing earlier, while it was 70 degrees and sunny here in Auburn Hills and Rochester. 


So, a lot happened last night, I guess. 
I went to go see the OSO and Oakland University Choir perform The Rite of Spring and Dona Nobis Pacem at Orchestra Hall. It was fantastic, and it truly seemed like a once in a life time experience for the performers, especially the mass of choir students. It was great!
After the performance, I stepped into the bathroom to call my mother back.
And she explained that my cousin was coming back to Michigan.
Well, I knew this, we'd talked about it. She was going to come to OU for college!
No. She was coming back to Michigan that night. 
As in, after a full day of work, my father and my aunt were making a 12-13 hour drive down to Arkansas to pick up my cousin. 
She and her father had apparently been going at it all week, arguing, swearing, just lots of bullshit. I guess some more shit happened that I barely remember understanding that pushed them both over the edge.
"I want to go back home to Michigan" and "Get out and go back to Michigan" were apparently said, and so that was that. Instant. 
It's a shame. Because now my cousin, whom was 8 weeks away from being finished with high school, cannot graduate on time. No school in the area is accepting new students, and some of her school credits may not transfer to Michigan's curriculum, and she needs to be a resident for such and such time to graduate, blah blah.... ugh.
It stressed me out quite a bit last night. I had trouble sleeping at all.


Because I didn't sleep well, I woke up late and chose not to attend my Music of World Cultures class. I sucked it up and went to Theory class though, then to lunch with Jake, and then to my two advising meetings. Figured out a bit through those, which was nice. Can't wait to schedule for classes in the next like, week and a half.


I feel kind of like I'm falling again. I keep getting headaches. I keep fretting. Time is going by slowly, and then all of a sudden, too quickly when I need it to slow up... My body is weak, my stomach doesn't want to handle food, and I'm just tired. I try my best to get these thoughts and feelings to disappear, but it doesn't last too long. It's a never ending cycle for me. 
We're back to where we started. Square one. With me feeling numb and worthless, and one person being my only mental escape... 
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I guess I should try and eat something... and read and relax or do more research about stuff. I don't know.


Just get me out of here.