OCD

OCD survey

1. When did your obsessive-compulsive tendencies begin?

The start of high school maybe? Perhaps in middle school, but I guess I didn't really notice them, because I wasn't really thinking about it.

2.What are your most prevalent obsessive thoughts?

Always stressing out about things I say, what I should say, how to say them, being organized, stacking things, perfection, constant worrying, worse-case scenario thoughts.

3. What are your rituals?

My family has pointed out that every hour, on the "35" minute, I crack my knuckles, unintentionally. I check on everything, making sure its okay. 

4. Do you take medication or receive therapy? What type? Has it helped you to cope with OCD?

No. 

5. Depression and obsessive-compulsive disorder often occur together. Are you depressed? 

Yes.

6. Does your OCD intensify under stressful situations?  

Yes. You should see me right now as I'm about to go to college tomorrow.

7. How do you feel about people casually using the term “obsessive-compulsive” to describe somebody who is meticulous? Does it offend you?

Not really.

 More OCD Symptoms (Bold yours)

• Wanting things to be Symmetrical.
• Ordering everything around them.
• Wanting things to be “perfect”, exact.
• Seeking that feeling of “Just Right”.
• Preoccupation with aligning items such as papers, books in a certain “perfect” way.
• Reluctancy to throw things away, independent of their value or usefulness.
• Looking through the garbage to ensure nothing valuable was thrown away, some will go through others peoples garbage.
• Collecting such useless items.
• Urge to pick up items from the ground. 
• (in order for karmic balance, and then you remember you don't touch things, ever.)
• Discomfort when being around empty space and feeling the need to fill them.
• Bodily waste and/or secretion, such as urine, feces, saliva and blood.
• Scared of Dirt and Germs.
• Having blasphemous thoughts or saying bad things.
• The fear of being punished for these Thoughts.
• Concern with religious beliefs.
• Repeating and getting stuck on religious images and/or thoughts.

This results in excessive fear, worry and preoccupation with: 

Having an illness.

Having others react negatively to 1’s appearance. 

Fear of saying/thinking certain words because of the negative consequences that may result from doing so.

Not being able to use certain Colors, #’s or Letters because they are negative, some #’s will be unlucky or lucky.

Rigid adherence to excessive superstitious fears.

Everything can become “negative” or “positive” and will become very rigid and omnipresent in the person’s life. 

The urge to remember certain things such as slogans, license plate #’s, names, words or event of the past... This could also be explained as the “Fear” of forgetting.

The fear of saying something wrong or not “Just Right” and/or leaving details out.

This makes the person go to great extend to tell everything “Just” as it was.

Worrying about making mistakes.

Easily bothered by the feel of clothing, textures on the skin.
Small imperfections can drive the person crazy. Repeating of routine activities for no logic reason.

Repeating the same questions.

Rewording or rewriting words or phrases.